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« Thread Started on Jun 14, 2006, 7:46pm » | |
So, recently I realized I wanted to give up SI.  Which in the end, got me to talk to one of my teachers who offered to talk.  I told her about the SI (not about anything else tho!) and how I had been feeling so down  lately. She got me numbers of professionals to talk to and call. Like Thearpy. So then, I went to talk to my mom about it. She totally blew me off and acted like I was just an emotional teen and I couldn't bring myself to tell her about the SI. So, its almost 2 weeks later and I have gone totally back to cutting, almost every single night. And I am not happy still, even though it is summer.  And I can't control my emotions and sometimes I scare myself. I mean, I am not suicidal. I mean sometimes I like plan it in my head, hold the pills in my hand that kinda thing. But I'd never act on those thoughts I think. And I don't want to cut. But I know I can't live with out cutting. I just, should I talk to my mom again? Its hard for me, we don't have a good relationship and if I get told that I am just "emotional teen" and stuff I have no idea how I will be able to deal with it all. I don't know. I don't want to be this screwed up anymore.
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« Reply #1 on Jun 22, 2006, 2:50pm » | |
You can try to talk to ur mom again. But if that doesnt work, there are a bunch of hotlines that u can call up and talk to the ppl there about it and see what advice they give u. maybe u can even go back to that teacher and tell her that u are having a hard time in getting ur mom to cooperate...maybe she can do something....
idk..im just throwing out all the ideas i have...
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« Reply #2 on Jul 2, 2006, 12:42pm » | |
i know from past experiences that trying to talk to your parents or a loved one about something like that is very nerve racking and just plain out sucks. when your all calm you think on it you worry about hurting them and worrying about measures they might take on you and where you would end up, and then on the other hand when your all upset crying angry and just having a 'episode' as the stupid assholes like to call it, you really dont care all you want is to just scream at the top of your lungs and say you need help and you do this and you do that. what you need to do is sit down with your mom in a very adult manner. tell her exactly how your feeling. yeah she is right that many teens at this age are moody, or depressed, but cutting and self harm is a lot more then a depressed teen. you need to show her. or go to a teacher or guidance counselor and they will tell your mom. maybe your mom is a hard ass and needs an actual adult to prove to her that her daughter needs something to make her feel better. no one should go through with what your going through. im me on aim xsooradx3..
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good luck. hang in there.
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« Reply #3 on Jul 2, 2006, 12:45pm » | |
noy only that.. but everyone who is depressed and doing things your doing doesnt want to be that way, but to them it feels like they have no other choice. what you need to do is take the motivation you have left inside and realize that its gonna get better, its not over til you say its over. life is the only test given without the lesson. you gotta hang in there. if you cant threw to your mom go to a friend, teacher, friends parents, anyone.
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« Reply #4 on Aug 9, 2006, 7:08pm » | |
Quote:| But I'd never act on those thoughts I think. And I don't want to cut. But I know I can't live with out cutting. |
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If you don't want to cut, why do you say you can't live without it? Do you remember yourself before you did? Were you happier then?
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« Reply #5 on Dec 18, 2008, 6:59pm » | |
YOU ARE SO BRAVE!!!!
I can't even begin to imagine taking all the initiative and action you have to even try and tell anyone let alone your mum!
Your foots in the door and there is so so much help out there if you ask for it. Keep pushing. You'll get through to your mum eventually and things will fall into place.
Best wishes
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