outkast « Thread Started on Jun 16, 2006, 4:25pm »
I come from a flipino background. I have a mom and dad and older sister. My parents arent really the outgoing type of people. They hardly played with me and my sister growing up. Or hardly tought us anything. My mom and dad had me and my sis when they were in their late 30's. wel, my dad is like 14 years older than her so yeah. They didnt take us out much.
Growing up i didnt have that much guidance. i dont know what i want to be. I struggled with an eatign disorder when i was about 9 and till now. Over-eating & binge-eating. I kind of blame it on my parents b/c...in my household there was no Breakfast, lunch or dinner at all. It was "if ya hungry go make urself something". I was never tought healthy eating. My dad would always bring us to BurgerKing.
My mom is always at work. She's an important nurse at her hospital. You can call her a work-a-holic. She sufferes from depression and diabetes too. My mom goes to work then when she comes home she goes to work...then when she wakes up its back to work again!...Thats her life....ever since i was born.
My dad is retired from the navy and it just became a senior citizen. he has anger problems. And very non-talkative. And he doesnt like me. He usually stay on the living room couch and watches the filipino channel, or goes and gamables my mom's money away.
My sister is 1 year older than me. She's skinny. She's been a sraight A student her whole life. no drugs her boyfriend. nor many friends. She goes to college now! She usually just surfs the internet all day, and dance in her room or studies for some test she has coming up.
I live in the huge mansion that is to die for. There''s only 4 of us. Our family is like segrated. My sister upstairs in her room. im always upstairs on the otherside of her. My parnets are always downstairs. We all four dont talk much. Dont communicate at all. I feel like im the outkast because....I didnt graduate highschool, dont even have my G.E.D yet. I had my current BF for like 3 years now. Ever since i was 15 ive been with him. He always sleeps over the house.(which i dont think my parents like but they dont tell) I always got in trouble in school and with the cops. I got into drugs. I used to steal money from my parents....(only because they have so much and they never give me any) I mean i swear i live inn this huge house and but yet im like poor. my parnets never liked to bring me shopping. I remember rotating like 3 pairs of jeans in middleschool. and yeah, that would get me in to the col crowd huh? i dunno....i wanted to write how f**ked up my family sitaution is. but its so complicated...i dont even know how to explain it.
But today....
I just want to die so bad.
Everything will be better.
"This world is out to kill you, if not than urself"
Joined: May 2006 Gender: Female Posts: 26 Location: In My Own Mind
Re: outkast « Reply #1 on Jul 3, 2006, 2:40am »
family sux -- theres nothing you can do abt it -- i know my fam is the same -- they ignore me like im not there or something i dont get it -- wats the point of fam when ur always doin things by urself -- but i wud try to do my best to get the hell out of there i dont know anything but home
depressionkillz, your only 18 and you talk like you are 80. One of the things you need to do is remember how living in your families house (you don't pay bills so it's not your house) remember it and hate it enough that you get up and do something to change it. Find out when you can take the state GED exam. You don't even have to tell anyone that you are taking it. It can be your little secret. Then when you have done that, get a job, save up your money, and then one day with out saying a word, move out! Do well for yourself and never look back. One more thing if you ever have kids remember how your parents treated you and remember to never treat your kids like that! If your parents can't do right by you, then you will have to do right by yourself!
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