weight loss « Thread Started on May 9, 2007, 1:34pm »
hey ive been battling anorexia for years Ive always had an extra voice inside my head, punishing me with every bite i take. Ive always been big or chubby, and started dieting at the age of 13, making my metabolism really low. finally i was old enough to leave home, and have my own life, absentmindedly i just wouldnt eat, and let the voice take over. it felt great, every day i felt light headed, proud, and my bones would stick out. now im back home and my mom makes me eat 3 meals a day. ive been going to a phsyciatrist and eating disorder people to help.. ive tried to make the voice go away, and had a couple of lovely weeks on the couch, with friends, and movies, and snacks, telling myself that since i weighed 45 kilos it was all allowed. WRONG!! it all came back. all of it. half a year has gone to waste and i am fat again. and i hate it so badly. all i want to do is lock myself up in a dark room, with a book or tv, distract myself from my own bad thoughts, and never eat another bite, untill i weigh 45 again - or less. i know this isnt supporting anorexia, but please. i need your help. i need strength to lose weight. i am fat. fat.fat.fat.fat.fat.fat and angry at myself every dy for letting it get this bad.
Joined: Feb 2007 Gender: Female Posts: 40 Location: Queensland - Australia
Re: weight loss « Reply #1 on Jul 10, 2007, 7:24pm »
charlotte, i know how you feel.
i am kinda the same.. except ive never been anorexic. I was 47kg a few months ago but then started to recover and it was great. For a few months i was happy and less stressed, but then when i stood on the scales again and saw that i had gained 7kg, i felt/feel so worthless, weak, ashamed etc etc, you know how it goes.
PM me plz - because i want to help you
be strong and try to stay focused on what really matters to you xx
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