I would have one meal a day. Usually a can of beans or potatoes for dinner, but I'd always feel terrible after it. Don't know why, but I always did. So I would purge. Sometimes I wouldn't eat for a few days, but I would get so hungry that I ate a lot of food, but then I felt so sick, and guilty, so I would purge.
I'm one of those rare few that didn't do it to lose weight. I first did it because of my depression. I had major depression (now it's manic), and I just wouldn't feel like eating. But then, it became such a habit to not eat, that I did it for another two years. So, I guess I ended up doing it because of force of habit, not because I thought I was fat or anything.
When I started losing the tiniest bit of weight, I felt great. So...yeah. *shrugs*
I still get those urges to purge, but I haven't done it in over half a year.
Hi i thought i was the only one"I'm one of those rare few that didn't do it to lose weight. I first did it because of my depression. " thats pretty much what i am going through now. I have suffered with depression for over 2-3 years off and on. mostly on i just successfully got off my ad because they didnt help and the side effects were to much to bare. I trying to go this road alone without the ads or any support. Once i went into a counselor and she made me feel like crap so i never went back. so i havee to do this alone. but lately since being off of my meds i keep wanting to restrict or starve down nothing even though i know it's unhealthy!
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